2020. I NEVER want to see those numbers again. Then in the next breath I do. This is grief. There is never an absolute. There is never an end. It […]...

Survival. Now there is a word I thought would never be associated with my personality in my life. I have never wanted to just get by. But these days survival […]...

The 24th of this month will be six months since I have held my baby. Six months since we physically hugged, shopped at target, got Frappuccino’s, or just laughed. People […]...

I have sat here for days thinking about the ridiculous word thankful. I’m not sure thankful is where I am at or will ever be again. Thanksgiving is a holiday […]...

I can’t write on this one. In fact I can barely breath thinking about this. How is she not here for her day?Melina and I did birthdays big. Like ridiculously […]...

This weekend is the beginning of really hard. Really hard moments. And the anxiety of the feelings to come is scary. But what really hurts the most is not only […]...

I want to start by saying that the three greatest gifts in my life are by far my children. They are an amazing gift I was given and am beyond […]...

Today was a tough day. Somedays truly are harder than others. I’m not sure there is an easy day. But there are really hard ones.Today I can’t place my feelings. […]...

Life really does keep moving. It’s crazy. I feel like I’m in a horrible dream and I can’t stop it. Yet I look around and feel like it was forever […]...

This week has been beyond overwhelming. So much good. So much positivity. So much joy and so much love. Yet at the same time these days and weeks are so […]...